How did the Jews cope with the desire to commit violence against Germans post-WWII? I mean, surely, the russki baby rapists mutilated both the German cities and the German nation to an ugly extent, but was it enough? I admit, I don’t know a lot about the Jewish people, maybe a bit more than the average university-graduated human. But most things I know inspire respect and fascination.

The Dark Forest hypothesis speculates that, for the sake of their survival, the numerous civilizations across the universe conceal their presence. They who reveal themselves are immediately exterminated by the nearest more advanced civilization.

Heavenly Figure… If Thou is disappointed in me, know that I am disappointed in myself a thousandfold!

Almost every time I see a furry on Xitter, they support so-called r*ssia. I am well aware of their mental disorders, but why do mental disorders have to correlate with evil? Could it instead stem from the contrarianism in their personality? Is my data flawed? Hard to tell.

Fuck r*ssia. Yes, absolutely. But — more importantly — fuck the people who constitute the abomination.

Despite being the most sanctioned country in the world, despite wasting all spare resources on wars, despite suffering from internal armed conflicts to this day — the terrorist state still holds together. Why? Because its obedient subjects hold it together, obviously.

Like tiny little cogs in a gigantic hideous clockwork, every fucking r*ssian does their job, diligently.
Some design ballistic missiles.
Some negotiate on getting more missiles from North Korea or Iran.
Some shoot their brothers in arms in the back when they try to surrender.
Some shoot their brothers in arms in the face when they try to retreat.
Some manufacture artillery shells or ammunition.
Some snitch on their sons who avoid military service.
Some register on social networks to troll the victims of the invasions.
Some infiltrate foreign media to spread disinformation.
Some launch missiles in the most populated civilian areas.
Some initiate a double-tap strike to kill the rescuers.
Some lower their heads and shut their mouths.
Some cry about r*ssophobia and shift all the blame onto the tzar.
Some write alternative history books.
Some distribute amenities to the frontline.
Some donate to the soldiers.
Some recruit prisoners.
Some purchase drones from China.
Some push propaganda on state TV.
Some abduct kids from the occupied territories.
Some cover up the war crimes…
The list goes on and on and on and on and on… I won’t spend my whole day on it.

My fate was that my first language was the r*ssian language. And my personality was that I preferred to make acquaintances over the Internet. I did not care where the person was from, but I needed them to speak the language I knew. Consequently, many, if not most, of my Internet acquaintances resided in the Moscow-subjugated territories.

When the invasion started, every one of them acted as if nothing happened. There was not a word of concern, not a word of condemnation, no calls for action, nothing. The overall picture was no better. Remember: less than a fraction of one percent of the population protested. People pretended their country didn’t just make the worst decision in decades. And then the support for the war among the masses only grew. Of course, I was surprised and inquired what the fuck. Below is a summary of their reactions, from the best to the worst.

1. “I am doing something. Only death will save r*ssia.”

Wow. Even I wasn’t so certain at the moment.

In my naive youth, after the r*ssians invaded Ukraine in 2014, I thought that future casualties could be avoided. I mused on the idea of Navalny (or some other “liberal” opposition leader) withdrawing the r*ssian forces from Ukraine and then cultivating so-called r*ssia into a civilized country. I was so wrong. I wasn’t aware their opposition existed only in power, but never in thought. It is now apparent that their issues are too deep-rooted.

2. “Invasion? Never heard of it. Okay, I will display some support.”

They displayed some support.

3. “Damn… Putin bad! Stay safe. No, I will not: display my position/discuss it with friends/ask my dad to avoid military service/do anything whatsoever in support of Ukraine. This is because: people already know my position/it is too dangerous/it won’t change anything.”

This kind of response was the most popular, so I combined several of them into one. Maybe some of the respondents hated Ukraine behind my back, as their leaders conditioned them to. But the majority, I believe, simply did not care.

4. “What? Ukrainians defend their homeland? No, buddy, you are spreading Western propaganda. There are no ‘good guys’ in this war. But I am good. I help animals.”

I assume there were a lot of similar people who practiced conspiratorial thinking and the “it is not all that simple” approach. Luckily, I didn’t keep in contact with many such people since they are usually too low-intelligence for a meaningful conversation.

5. “Yes, I heard of the invasion. Maybe I will do something.”

Later, they started spreading content of xenophobic and disinformative nature and blocked me.

Those were the reactions.

Now, you may be thinking, “Well, it is not too terrible.” And I agree!

It is not awfully terrible for a terrorist state whose existence hangs solely on the devoted support of its citizens. But here’s the thing. I didn’t just speak to randoms. I never keep in contact with those who cannot understand at least half of what I am saying. Some of the acquaintances were rich by local standards. Some of them studied at the best university in the country. And some were simply nice and polite, which was already a miracle for a person raised in that toxic environment. Consider the respondents to be the top 1% of the wretched society. And — if you are brave enough — extrapolate their reactions to the rest 99%.

Maybe you heard the stories from the onset of the full-scale war about the r*ssians who were calling their relatives from Ukraine to wish them death. Now you see it wasn’t some “fake news” but rather an expected, frequently occurring event.

Whatever people call “r*ssia” is an enormous cesspit, every little shit of which contributes to the unbearable stench stretching over eleven time zones.

I haven’t bought a single physical book in a long time. In eight or ten years, probably. Partially because I see fiction as an inferior medium for storytelling, entertainment, cultural enrichment, immersion, et cetera. Partially because I read on my laptop.

I’ve started reading more fiction in recent years, though. Books will remain forever superior in some niche aspects. I am particularly interested in the language itself.

I also finally purchased two physical books a few days ago. Previously, I was put off by the necessity to take a trip to the town to find a book in English. But I got lucky and stumbled upon several in a store that was very close. I did not care what the stories were about. I’ve never heard of the authors and may never hear of them again. But they were seemingly eloquent native speakers, which was good enough.

My delightful surprise motivated me to write this entry. I anticipated a more pleasant reading experience but didn’t expect it to be so much better. It is so refreshing when you don’t need to carry your laptop around, when the bright light from the screen does not drill into your eyes’ retina.

I hope to find an easy way to recycle books. I would hate to throw them away as trash, and I would hate to pile them up.

Out of all little dots I’ve connected,
I’ve neglected the smallest of all.
I’ve collected the rest and perfected
The connections that tangled them all.

Both the US and UK embassies warn about possible terrorist attacks in Moscow.

Remember when the russians blew up apartment buildings to motivate more people to join the Chechen war?

We may finally see something similar soon.

An old fable.

Ivan the Fool caught a magic fish from a river.

“I will grant you any wish,” said the fish, “but there is a catch. Anything you wish for yourself — a quarter of that will be granted to your neighbors.”

Ivan laughed and wished for all his limbs to be amputated.

Everyone is headed to the post-truth world.
But China is taking huge leaps here.
We can’t prevent it.
Only adapt.